I'm Ellie. :) My obsessions include my girlfriend, Glee, Avenged Sevenfold, flannel, playing guitar, lava lamps, hair products, Converse, and technical theatre. Oh and cats. :)
By the by, I happen to have an absolutely gorgeous and amazing girlfriend. Her name is Natasha. I am head over Chuck Taylors in love with her. <3
During it’s first few seasons, I LOVED watching Desperate Housewives. I stopped following it after a while for some reason. If I had the money I’d go out and buy it all on DVD and re-watch it right now.
I hang up my band shirts in alphabetical order.
I flippin’ love that the first time my girlfriend said “I love you” was the second before I went onstage to take a bow for my first big role in a school production. <3
I let one person run my life for a long time. Breaking free from that was the best decision of my life. For the first time in six years, I could be myself. It took me a while to find my true self and realize that the only person who can tell me what to do is me. What I know now is, 1. Don’t let anyone but you make your decisions. and 2. If you find yourself worrying about what people will think, or more so, what someone will think, before you do anything, you need to stop and think about yourself. I used to be paranoid all the time; everything I did came back to, “What is **** going to think about this?” And that’s just no way to live. Don’t let anyone make you feel like you’re lesser than them. If you find yourself in a friendship and/or relationship where someone says to you things along the lines of:
“Shut the fuck up right now if you know what’s good for either of us,”
“You’re such a fucking idiot,”
“You’re a terrible person,”
“Stop acting like you know anything,”
“…cause that’s how much of a baby you are,”
“I am going to hit you,”
or
“If you were here right now I’d honestly beat the shit out of you,”
then it’s time to go. If they are verbally or physically abusing you, or threatening to, get out. Don’t think that you’re making a big deal out of nothing, because it’s not nothing. Whether or not they mean it is irrelevant. Leave and sever all ties and don’t look back. You won’t believe the weight that is off your shoulders when you can go about your life without worry of what someone will say or do about it. One thing I learned from my driver’s ed instructor (thanks Eric) is that there’s two types of people that can be in your life: nurturing people and toxic people. Nurturing people help change you for the better and keep your spirit healthy. They’re the ones who make you feel warm inside, who make you smile, who accept you for every silly or weird or strange little bit that you are. Toxic people fill your life with bad energy and worry, and dim the bright things in your life. They give you that feeling of the thousand-pound deadweight in your stomach, the constant paranoia, the beaten-down and oppressed feeling. Cut these people out of your life. Do what makes you happy. You and your happiness are invaluable.
With love and acceptance,
Ellie
P.S. If anyone reading this thinks this sounds familiar and feels stuck or wants to talk, my ask box is wide open. <3
Whenever I hear a plane fly overhead, I absolutely have to look out the window and make sure it’s not spiraling towards the ground. I’m paranoid about plane crashes and I really don’t like flying.
My cat is one hell of a mouser, but I hate finding their limp little bodies after he’s caught them. I always jump to thinking, “Aw what if this was a little daddy mouse and now the mommy mouse will wonder what’s taking him so long, but he’ll never come home and his little mouse kids will wonder where their daddy’s gone and my cat is just sitting here with a smug look on his face. Oh it’s so tragic.”
Like this, only dead :(
..Poor little guy :’(
I literally just realized that the shooting star marshmallows in Lucky Charms are shooting stars and not just present-shaped marshmallows.
AHAHA.
Confession #4.
When I was like 8, I had an M&M board game for my GameBoy Advance. I told my mom I was putting my name as “Dick” and “Dicko” for the scoreboard. (Why? I don’t know, I was like 8 lol. I had no idea.) She very sternly told me to just put my real name, never that.
(Source: meme4u, via bringyoudown)
When I was little, I’d always hear this music playing in my neighborhood around a certain time of day. For the longest time it frustrated the heck out of me, because I didn’t know what it was; I just thought somebody would always play this childlike music somewhere and I thought I was missing out on something. Later on I realized I actually had been missing out on something: the routine ice cream truck, blasting it’s little tune throughout my neighborhood and selling delicious frozen treats to children smart enough to realize that the music was from the ice cream man.
I may be a total lesbian, but I can’t say I found King Jareth in Labyrinth all that unattractive. What can I say, he’s enchanting.
I actually regret coming out when I did. I think it was really risky, it happened much too early, and I shouldn’t have labeled myself so soon. I was fourteen, I was confused, and I didn’t think about it enough. I’m just lucky and very thankful that I’m not confused as to who I am now and that I have such supportive people in my life.
